Unsure of what to do with myself

So always having an idea what I would be doing you know later in the day or whatever. It all changed when I met someone else, you know was in all about myself or whatever. Ok let me back up, I was another relationship and I spent a lot of time with her in this can I get to the point where you know just felt like all I did was spend how much time with her and I never really did anything for me. And I know that’s not really the truth but that’s the way I guess I felt at the time? So I really enjoyed going home to my own house you know so I can do my own stuff and get a break and you know all that jazz. So anyways umm, fast forward back to present day. I met a really awesome girl and I really enjoy spending time with her and hanging out and doing stuff you know that I would consider I guess to be typical relationship stuff. I guess I wouldn’t really know because I’m not really very good at this. I also want to point out that I find myself wanting to spend more and more time with this woman, because I really enjoy hanging out with her, not like I have to find an excuse to get away it’s like I have to find a reason to be there or something I know I don’t need a reason I don’t really know how to explain it. Well do to… The fact that I’m not very good at this and can be kind of daft sometimes she wanted to take a break. Which I don’t really blame her because I was kind of an ass. Well I’m at the point where I kind of got accustomed to hanging out with her. Well in giving her space in her break I am quite obviously not hanging out with her. And therefore I’m back at home I’m not really sure what to do with myself I mean there’s stuff to do but now I’ve grown accustomed to hanging out with her and doing the stuff that I used to do alone with her. And well it just feels weird to do it by myself and so I’m kind of sitting at home twiddling my thumbs, bored out of my mind. And I’m hoping that one day she’ll want to date me again and to be with me, but nothing in life is for certain… So for now it’s just wait and see…